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Laugher is what I need 

I love you guys for giving it to me 

Deep thoughts.

Deep thoughts are just deep. 

Thoughts about somethings that happened, and somethings that will never happen. 

Thinking that you will be there. Thinking that I will be there too . Seeing you getting hurt is unbearable yet I can't do anything for you. 

Acting calm but actually not. 

Maybe just me.

Me that think too much. 

Me that want to be there yet can't. 

Me that trying hard to hide my feeling yet showing. 

Me that reading your journal yet still hiding. 

I want to let go yet I'm still hanging there. 

I want to stop yet still continue. 

I want you to be happy 

Real 

Happy. 

So when I see it I promise I can then let go totally. Fully. And forever. 

And the next sunset will then be beautiful again. 

Finally

我等了五年了 

I officially stepped down from prefectorial board. I had been really thankful for being here. I used to be very into prefect until sec 3, life was very tiring for me in gb already so I did not want give myself to have more thing to care. Prefect is one of reason that my cca grade got A1 and of course I didn't join the board because I want to have cca grade. Just saying it because I'm thankful for it :-) 

Wonderful things will cease one day. 

Here we are. 

Bye board 

Bye tie 

I will miss everything there.

Time gone

Is it just me? Or the time is really running out. 

Why is time passing so fast when I need more? It's just reminder for me to study hard and not waste any of my time. 

Time is already running out yet my life is still in a mess. Quarreling with the same old shit teacher is wasting my fucking time. He don't worth my time but don't quarrel leads to hatred within me and I can't release it. 

"I have been trying to help you people" he said. But then truth is he didn't do anything. His words just can't be trusted. 

He just don't want any trouble for himself. So if people gets trouble to him is just two words. "Too bad" and my reply will always be "get a life you fking dog" although I didn't say it out because I don't want to have trouble led by this worthless shit leedog. 

I don't know that my life will be so shitty until he appeared in my life. To him, his 10 over years of teaching experience is always right. So he can insult demoralize criticize us all he wants. Hah this is also why lots of people dislikes him. 

If he dies I must be the one who cursed him.

Community we can!

Had so much fun! Joining meaningful event have always been something that I wanna do. I will join more next time 👍 

Woohoo team termites(because our leader is mike) wasn't there when they took this photo! But it's okay my soul was here! Community we can! 

Sick

I'm sick. The worse fever I guess. I detest it. I didn't sleep for the whole last night, feeling extremely awful.

I always get sick easily, but most of the time are just flus and slight fever. This time my temperature reached 39.8 :-( I had a really bad headache.. really very bad ... Hopefully I can recover by tonight then I can make it for clique movie
tomorrow  

Ramen & concert

This is my first time attending such concert. I didn't fall asleep so congrats to me! 

On that day before the concert, I went to maccha house at orchard central with Regine and Grace. Regine and Grace are like my food buddies, we hunt for good food together heh. The ramen there was damn good, if you're ramen lover and you happened to read this, then go and try because it's damn good! HAHAHA

Photos are below ⬇️

   

Back

It's been a long time without blogging. I'm back go keep track on my life. So when I gets older, I can read about my past here 😝 as you guys know my stm is very jialat. 

2015 is indeed a stressful year for me. I never know life will be so tough. My life is tough because of this new teacher. 

I got a new form teacher this year, and this is bad. I don't know how to describe him. He is the worse teacher that I have met in my freaking 17 years of life. 

First day of school, he encouraged us to go ite. First Amath lesson, he encouraged us to drop - so from 10 amath students now left w 5 - 

Not only that, he looked down on my class. Forever judging us and predicting how bad our future would be like. Forever demoralizing and insulting us. 

I took two O's subject last year, so I didn't want to retake. But there is rule says that students have to take in least 5 subjects, but I only left with 4. So this form teacher forced me to retake. I insisted not to, and so he stared at me every morning during the flag rising ceremony. After all, I am taking 4 subjects because I wrote a letter to the principal, and he accepted my request :-)  

He continues to find trouble with me.. 

I fought back but sadly he is teacher, and never fight with a teacher because you will never win. When he can't settle you himself, he spread to the whole staff room. Oh well, so all my close teachers came and talked to me about it. Anyway I heck care about him too because I will be just wasting my time. 

I'm just here to rant ..