Late Birthday Present..

Yesterday I get a present <-- A BIRTHDAY PRESENT.. late for 29 days. Don't know why so stupid go count the days >< Haha! Cause I'm stupid ;) And It's ear piece, something that I wish to get it on my birthday ;) And that person who give me this, is a special person.. 

At first place, I thought it was not him.. But who will be so lame, but still I don't believe is him.. Then the next day I went to school, I tell all my friend and senior say I think is not him. Then someone go ask his friend, after I know is him, but I still can't believe.. 

Why he give me a birthday present? My brain is like keep asking me this question.. 

Then a friend say he like me?! I don't think so.. But how to explain why he give me a birthday present? Give for fun? He's not so lame. Or give me this present to let me stop liking him? ;/ if this is the answer, then I think I should liking him and also stop hurting myself ;/ And it will be like I lost another person ;'( 

I lost quite a lot number of people this year.. My heart have already broken </3 I don't think anyone can fix it for me.. After all, I'm used to it already.. No one understand me ;) Misunderstanding and a lot all.. never mind, I will still smile and face all problem.. Haha! Stop talking about this, ruin my mood ;) 

Or, he really like me? But if he like me, why no tell me? Haha! I don't think he like me, I so ugly and fat >< And stupid.. ;( Somehow I feel no one care about me too.. 

Message to him ;)

Hi? There's a question in my head, and wanna ask you.. But I just don't know how to ask. So is that present you wanna give me? If yes, why you give me? You like me? I know that's the most impossible answer, I know you won't like me, so let it be. I will forget everything, I try k? Actually I wanna give up long long time ago, but there's a feeling in heart, telling me I can't give up, maybe you don't believe but it true.You make me smile for nothing, laugh for nothing and first time will shy until my face red ><  Thank for everything ;) 

Last thing.. This is my life, I'm always having negative thoughts.. Teacher want me to think positive but I just can't. And I have losting a lot people on my life because of my grandma, she pass away.. My friend she misunderstood me, hope one day she know ;) and now, is you.  Shouldn't be sad.. Must be happy ;) Cause if I sad, everyone around also will be sad. I don't want anyone to be sad, k!